clomplicated

i don't know, where is a way in my problem ..
but i'm so sad,because this problem has noot been complited until now and this problem must be resolveed immediately , ohh i'm confused :'(
i do not  want to leave everything here,my friends,my school,my experiences,my past,and anymore .
i already loved the world of me in here,i do not leave my world ..
tapi disisi lain i do not want away from parents :(
yaa gue harus milih jalan hidup gue ,
when my parent question to me "teh gimana mau sekolah dimana ? "
i just silent,i don't know what to say ohh god HELP ME FINDING A WAY !!!
i often ask to god when i'm after sholat and praying "ya tuhan aku bingung,harus bagaimana ini ?"
sometime i cry thingking about this and I was more calm when I cry myself and just bury my feelings ..
i wanted to shout as loud as the severity AAAAAAA GOD !!!!!!!!!
IT'S VERY CLOMPLICATED !!!!
WHY THIS PROBLEM SHOULD HAPPEN TO ME !!!!!!!!
SHIT ! DAMN ! OH GOD (CRYING) (-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩___-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩-̩̩̩)